January 16th, 2006
|09:04 pm - From Tahoe to Nevada then Oregon to Colorado... I'm no ok with this|
So my parents are planning on moving in 4 years, which is good, they deserve to get the hell out of this house and this town, but I can't take all this pressure to find out what I'm gonna be doing. My dad says, chances are I wil be married by then. But I don't think so. I mean, I really don't know. And what if i am? I still want my children to see their grandparents often. Tehre is no way tht is posse with thsnew Colorado plan. Fuck Colorado.
August 10th, 2005
|07:44 pm - Do you think...|
Noah Lowry would sign my ball for me?
July 26th, 2005
|07:43 pm - blah|
so im pretty sick, granted it's just a headcold, but man, i am so incredibly dizzy... I am suppossed to cover for my mom tomorrow, but i really wont be very helpful running into walls and getting all the patients sick... Im gonna have to do it, becuase she has told me i have no choice, but its gonna be awful... i can barely stand up let alone, greet patients and be on my feet all day. Oh fucking well... Thanks mom for the great mothering... Walter offered to drive me to and pick me up from work, at the time, i told him i wouldnt need him to, but as i start to feel more and more dizzy, im thinking its progbably a good idea for me to not be driving... last time i drove sick dizzy, i was heading for the sidewalk, at that point i turned around and came back home.
March 7th, 2005
February 28th, 2005
|11:17 pm - Copied Maya|
Your Brain is 53.33% Female, 46.67% Male
Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve
Thats about right...
February 25th, 2005
|05:13 pm - oooooooo|
if you read this,
even if i don't speak to you often,
you must post a memory of me.
it can be anything you want-- good or bad,
just as long as it happened.
then post this to your journal and see what people remember about you...
February 19th, 2005
|03:15 pm - Im sorry livejournal|
myspace has stolen me.
Lets see, not much going on in the life of me, the normal sitting at home alot, way into justy's b-ball games, loving the rain, spring break planning even though i dont think that it is gonna happen. Walter is getting a cast on his foot on wed. Jutin is in the mcal playoffs. Alex is a busy bee. Shannon is well every end of the spectrum. I got 785 points on packet tanks, my personal best. ummmm thats all i can think of for now, sorry!
hope all is well with y'all
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Straylight Run
February 3rd, 2005
|06:15 pm - Your Thoughts?|
Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: walters fan in his house, where i was left alone...
January 30th, 2005
|05:27 pm - yeah, im updating...|
I know, i know, i really dont write anymore...
well life has changed alot since i last wrote, walter and i broke up... ok no im juts kidding CALM DOWN! hehe. Sorry, i wanted something spicy to say, but the truth is things for now are actually pretty good. Probably becuase they were bad for awhile (since shan got back) and now things are back to normal, so i appreciate it more and it seems great. He went on his shannon kick, you know a month with him and no me, when there was me, there was always shan too, and, being with your boyfriend with his best friend is just way different than being with just your boyfriend, and i really needed him. So last week i told him, i said, "i know this sounds selfish, but i thinking have been more than understanding about your shannon time, now i am gonna need some attention too, not all of it, but some of it." You know, something to that extent. he said he oes want to spend time with me, that he also feels obligated to spend time with shan, but he needs to do what he wants to do sometimes too. so we he came down, and took me out for our 2 and a half year semi-anniversary thing. We went to the city and ate at Hooters, where we had both never been, it was fun and I knew a girl that worked there so we talked to her and got chicken wings, which wer so F-ING good and this is a girl talkiong who doesn't even care for chicken wings so much... so goood. We decided to take shan and Alex and anyone else back there during the giants season and watch a game there. After that we stopped in a little chocolate store, bought some and went to sit on these steps right up from the beach by fishermans warf. We sat and watched the night runners and ate our chocolate until it started to rain, it was really nice. Oh, i should add this, walter broke his foot. And he has been out of work and will be for another month so, he has pleanty of time for shan and me, i didnt want you all thinking he has been working and only gets a bit of time for shan, no no no, they live together, room together go everywhere together, you all know how it was/is still.
My classes are great! Im only taking nutrition and interpersonal communication, i dropped Anatomy, so that i could get a job, beucase things are tight, and i found out that i cant go to sacramento (im destroyed) so if i go to SRJC (most likely now) and if i want to live here i want to start paying for some of my own food and things and maybe some rent if my parents will allow it, beucase money's tight lately, and if i decide to live out of the house and go to SRJC, im gonna need some rent money of course. i have next semster to take anatomy and any other little classes that srjc or any other school throws at me last second. next step, finding a job, until then im gonna dontae alot of my time to playing housekeeper here becuase my parents are dying i swear, and hiopefully get some intern hours at a dental office. Walter is not happy that i am planning to get a job, but unless he plans on continuing to date me and then live with me and then MARRY me, hes gonna have to get oever it, he can't take care of me forever, well you know, he probably wont i mean. Which brings up some other stuff that i'll write about later, so check back, having to do with dreams, faith, and self esteem.
Current Mood: content
Current Music: straylight run - existentialism on prom night
January 4th, 2005
|11:08 am - shans b-day and other such things|
was fun. Walter still did not feel good so he was a bit mooody, but other than that it was great. I got to see and hang out with ALI which ws super cool. Buy the way, i have to call her and apoligise because the next day we were suppossed to meet at fayes and ater waiting there for a while shan finally showed up ... and without Ali, i didnt get to say goodbye or anyting and she had to drive back alone. I hope shan gave her a proper goodbye adn wasnt a butthead. Ali, you are so awesome and your friends in AZ are really lucky to have someone like you around to help them out and be there for them. I think you have really got things together there and that it was really awesome to talk to you about. Scene It was a hit, shan and alex and ali and i played... i got last... oh well hehe, it was still super fun! why am i saying super so much? meh, hehe. Walter stayed over last night. It was good to be back home and have walter here instaed of waltannon, we did a bit of shopping, he bought me two tank tops from old navy with his gift card and then i FINNALY bought new shoes!!! from journeys, they are all black, i got DC/s because my old DC's lasted many years and i wanted something durable and alex would kill me if i wore the ones with holes in them again. We came home and watched shallow Hal, interesting movie. speaking of which i have Netflix now!!!!!!! thanks to my dear and lovong neighbor/sister and her family, thank you Katie girl, i miss you!!! so basically, movie city over ehre, my mom is alraedy to start watching The Sapranos, and me, Sex and the City, on TBS it seemed ok, so i thought id give it a go. anyways, then wala and i went in the hot tub becuase hr hurt his elbows and they felt much better in the warm water. My mom bought crab, so we had a crab feast after that... YUM!!! then of course, we watched SVU and went to bed, he is still sleping now, it shouldn't be long before shannon calls from Vallejo, saying he is gonna be back and walter needs to go, meh, but still the past two days were very nice overall. I mioss my brother jake already, he left yesterday, i never feel like i see im enough when he is here, but when he is ehre, it feels like he is always going to be, i forget that he doesn't live here, you know? meh. more later, have a great day!
Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: Cold - Gone Away